Hello Family and Friends,
Let's just say that this past week was a major
disappointment. First of all Adriana was not baptized. Last week, right after
we had sent our e-mails to you all, we went directly to Adriana's house to
prepare her for her baptismal interview the next day. We arrived and instantly
we could feel that something was not right. She went on to tell us that she had
earned a scholarship -she is studying to be a judge- to go study in Porto Alegre. The bad news was that she had to leave
immediately. So she moved to Porto Alegre
Thursday, 2 days before her baptism. So yeah the baptism fell through. The good
thing is that she is still eager to be become a member of the church. We will
send the closest missionaries to where she is living and all they will have to
do is interview her and then baptize.
Both Elder Machado
and I have been walking around with a knife in our hearts this past week. There
is nothing more that I want than a baptism while Elder Machado and I are companions. We worked so much, its pains me to
think that this transfer will end this coming Monday and we will not have
baptized anyone! It is even worse when other missionaries are baptizing around
you with much more ease.
Another thing which sucked this week was that one of our
investigators died. Yep, we were teaching a couple, the sister and
brother-in-law of our Ward mission leader. He had cancer, but he was slowly
getting better. We saw his wife in the street the past Monday and she told us
that he would leave the hospital soon, and Thursday morning he passed away. I
gave him a blessing a month and half ago. I told him that he would have peace
in his life even though he was sick. I think I can say that this past month he
was a happier man. It was pretty hard to believe that he passed away when we
heard the news. The last lesson we taught was the plan of salvation so at least
he knew where he was going.
I have been looking for some peace myself after this past
week, actually from these past two months. I have been thinking a lot about
what I am doing wrong, and what I need to change. The only thing that keeps me
from going crazy is the thought that everything that is done in the missionary
work is done in accordance with the Lord's time. He has all the knowledge, he
sees things that our mortal eyes cannot, his thoughts are not ours. I know that
he has a plan for our area here in Dom Pedrito.
Sometimes we become impatient and we want everything now, and thus we become
ignorant to the fact that he controls everything and not us. This eternal truth
gives me more peace out here in the mission field. In Philippians 4:7 it is
said, "And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep
your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." I know that the baptisms will
come, God knows my heart, he knows that I want this to happen. I know that as I
strive to do my best he will bless me and others in his own time. This gives me
comfort, this gives me peace.
Elder Miller
P.S. Happy Birthday Axel!